S E L A I N

She’s really thwart y’ know! d story begins…I have 1 friend in d University…cause of her I have a heavy problem! d true is d problem just a tiny 1 but, d problem becoming bigger & bigger from tiny until a huge problem! I really pissed off, so sadly & disappointed with her…we have a good time 2gether & dat make me happy all d time! I think she will becoming my best friend…but I was wrong, when d news comes 2 me…all ’bout her characters & wht she did 2 me…behind me!!! Open my mind!!! Make my heart ruins! All ruins piece in piece with all my integrity as my friend now 4 me she’s just friend…She’s using masks…too many faces & fakes! I really trust her! Just 1 person who makes me like this in the University, she calls me with a meche & I said 2 call it a day but she didn’t understand a word…U c dat I really 2 get up on d wrong side of d bed. dis day like b4 isn’t a tubular. Wht she said it just bananas oil but in d way around I believe it but, just a while but still just put over d head. Now I knew dat I have rats on my side & 4 me, its jeopardy!!! Why??? Well just forget it…just go 2 sleep! Mix d problem??? Dun know?! Fudge! I dun want 2 hear ’bout her 4ever! All she did 2 me in front of my face it’s just a big hoax!!! Just simply make me pissed off that’s all, but just dis day LOL…other day & absolutely 2morrow yah…I will forgetting all d problem…& we will be friend again but started from d beginning again ^0^ so Happy ! weird huh ??? yah it’s me y’ know ^0^ me is me that’s all…I luv u friend ^0^ So sorry if I posted it in wired ^_^’ just a memorial 4 me ^0^

Uzumaki is an absolutely adorable film - think of it as the Sanrio of horror films (for those of you not up on your Japanese culture, Sanrio is the company responsible for the Hello Kitty phenomenon). Hello-Kitty-horror may not be for everyone, but for those who love their anime and manga (yours-truly included), Uzumaki is a delight. So it shouldn’t come as a surprise that Uzumaki is based on the popular manga by Junji Ito. You can read an interesting interview with Junji Ito about horror comics at Pulp-mag.com.

Uzumaki is the story of a town manipulated by spirals. The story’s young heroine, Kirie, inexplicably seems to be one of the only people in town who isn’t directly affected by the spirals. However, her best friend, Shuichi, isn’t so lucky. Shuichi’s father is the first to develop the spiral affliction. He becomes so obsessed with every spiral and spinning surface he sees that he is eventually compelled to climb inside the washing machine where he dies a ‘twisted’ death. Shuichi’s mother and Shuichi himself aren’t far from the spiral’s spell. In fact, the spiral is slowly pulling everyone into its influence. This spiral force isn’t fully explained in the film, although is does seem to have something to do with its power to draw attention into it, therefore those most susceptible to spirals are those who most want attention. There are hints that the town’s curse is connected to some ancient mysticism. A reporter enters the story with information about an ancient religion involved in worshiping snakes and mirrors, and their connection to the town’s lake. But, alas, he is killed off before he gets the chance to explain what the hell is going on.

This is not a film that you watch for the plot, at least not if you don’t speak Japanese. There are several moments in this film where it becomes evident that something was seriously lost in the translation – both language translation and cultural translation. From a North American perspective, there’s a lot about this film that seems disjointed, like something important was left on the cutting room floor. I’m also a little disappointed that there wasn’t a real ending to this film, just a collage of funky, spiral images. Like Ring, it could be that the ending was left open for the sequel, however, I am not aware of one in the works.

I want to stress that the disjointed plot and lack of a real ending are minor points for me. There is such wonderful imagery in this film that I was swept off my feet. The characters are all very weird but very cute at the same time. Their bizarre mannerisms are often points of creepy comedy. Equally so is the popcorn-style of special effects – you know, wonderfully cheesy stop-motion. And the soundtrack is a kooky mix of Japanese pop and creepy electronic sound-scapes. Overall Uzumaki is some weird, creepy fun!

To : Some1 ( Intial CH )
Kimi wa ikaga desu ka, boku mo genki desu ^0^ Mou ishuukan boku wa Bari de ryokou shite iru no desu. Sono aida boku wa bari de bura bura shite iru no desu. Hontou no tanoshikatta. Tatoeba Kuta Square de shanpo shite, Sanur de oyoida. Kimi no tame ni omiyage katta desu you. Raishuu ni Bandung e tsuzuite ryouko shitai to omette iru no desu ^0^

PS :
kono goro fukyou nano de, nano de arubaito mo naka naka mitsukarimasen. tokoro ga attara oshietekudasaimasen ka. Douzo, yoroshiku onegaishimasu. Chikai uchi ni oaishitai to omoinasu. sore dewa, , mata ^0^

LOL

Saya paling tidak suka, jika ada seseorang atau beberapa banyak orang yang
berani men-judge seseorang hanya dari penampilan saja tanpa melihat dengan mata
jeli dari berbagai sisi serta menilainya dengan seksama.

Memang kebiasaan tiap orang adalah melihat & menilai seseorang dari segi
menguntungkan saja, tapi lucunya orang yang memberikan kebaikan yang berlimpah
hanya melakukan kesalahan, langsung divonis orang tidak benar! hanya karena 1
perbuatan dan tidak melihat serta mengingat lagi perbuatan baik mereka. 
Sungguh bodoh manusia seperti mereka, sama seperti saya dulu.  Saya juga
dulu termasuk manusia bodoh yang hanya melihat dari hal-hal tersebut. 
Dari penampilan, status, sikap, latar belakang, dsbnya.  Tapi yang kurang
adalah saya tidak masuk lebih dalam lagi mengenai dirinya.  Hanya melihat
di "luar".  Tanpa ada orang yang menyadari bahwa dia sendiri berbuat dosa
karena melakukan sesuatu perbuatan yang mencoreng namanya sendiri, ibarat seekor
domba yang hilang dari 100 domba.  Tapi sayangnya manusia jarang yang cepat
bertindak untuk menyadarkan hanya mengkritik, lagipula siapa sich yang tidak
pernah dikritik?

Saya sendiri sadar karena teman saya "H" (mantan anak gank MB) yang
menyadarkan saya, bahwa saya salah, tanpa memvonis saya orangnya seperti apa
dulu, tapi ia menyadarkan saya bahwa setiap orang ada masalahnya
sendiri-sendiri dan kenapa mereka menjadi seperti itu begitu juga kau,
katanya.  Dia juga menceritakan tentang kisahnya dan saya diharuskan
mengerti lebih jeli dan lebih dalam, dengan begitu tidak ada yang namanya
menilai seseorang yang ada menyadarkan ke jalan yang benar dan bila orang itu
memiliki kebijaksanaan untuk berubah maka ia tidak akan melakukan kesalahan itu
lagi.  Manusia suka sekali melihat dan menilai orang lain tanpa melihat
cermin dari dirinya sendiri.  Walaupun orang beragama sekalipun tapi bagi
saya, seperti saya katakan agama ibarat dengan pakaian.  Jika hatinya kotor
maka pakaian itu akan dikotorinya pula tapi bila hatinya baik dan bersih maka
pakaiannya itu akan lebih memperindahnya.

Saya harap anda orang yang bijaksana.  Bagi saya, saya sangat berterima
kasih dengan teman yang mau menyadarkan saya dengan keramahan dan kelembutan.
Dia seperti teman saya yang telah pergi jauh bernama "F" sungguh orang yang
bijaksana.  Kalian semua juga bisa menjadi orang bijaksana secara spiritual
dan kata orang bijak itu hanyalah penilaian dari seseorang bukan dari diri kita
pribadi.

Jika anda ingin mengenal seseorang dan bersahabat dengannya, bersikaplah
terbuka dan cobalah telusuri lebih dalam tentang dirinya seperti halnya seorang
kekasih dan keluargamu, karena mereka juga manusia juga yang menginginkan kasih
serta perhatian untuk dikenal lebih jauh & sama-sama menjadi seseorang yang
saling menyadarkan 1 sama lain.  Jika ingin memiliki sahabat yang baik
bersikaplah sebagai sahabat yang baik.  Kau tidak perlu cinta kasih
jika kau telah menjadi sebuah cawan yang penuh dengan air dan menjadi lilin
penerang bagi yang lain.

Bagaimana jika orang yang kita sadarkan tidak pernah sadar-sadar? 
Tergantung bagaimana kita menyadarkannya, bagaimana suara dan ucapan kita dari
mengucapkan kata-kata dengan benar yang sesuai dengan pemikiran yang masuk dan
diterima oleh pikirannya, karena manusia itu seperti daun teratai.  Bila
apapun caranya tidak dapat dilakukan dan tidak dapat mengubah orang itu, berarti
kitalah yang harus berubah dalam arti menerima dirinya apa adanya dan biarlah
waktu yang menyadarkannya.  Tetap kita tidak boleh menilai sisi buruknya
lihatlah segi positifnya, untuk mengetahui itu kenallah lebih dalam orang itu.

Soal Natasha sebenarnya saya kenal melalui blog rolling yang tidak disengaja. Saya kenal baru bareng beberapa bulan saja dan saya tidak pernah bertemu muka hanya kirim-kiriman melalui shout box dan comment saja. Setiap saya tanya ada penyakit apa yang diderita ia selalu saja menghindar, bukan saya saja yang menanyakan keadaannya tetapi para blogger yang menanyakan juga tidak digubrisnya. Walaupun saya kenal cuma begitu saja tapi dari semua tulisannya saya rasa, saya bisa sedikit memahaminya dan yang paling diingininya hanyalah berada di suatu tempat yang indah penuh dengan kebahagiaan dan kedamaian.

Sebenarnya saya menulis memorial wired untuknya hanya untuk mengenangnya saja agar dapat selalu menjadi teman memorial yang pertama dan terakhir, dan bukan saya saja yang melakukannya, teman-teman dekat juga sahabatnya serta teman-teman blognya juga membuat memorial di wired (internet) untuk mengenangnya, karena pertama kalinya ada kejadian seperti ini. Dibilang teman juga bukan teman sich dan lagi juga kenal yach kenal begitu dech, tapi Natasha adalah teman khusus bagi saya (Karena isi dari blognya dan keramahan serta pemikiran yang disertai perasaan dengan hati yang tulus dari tulisannya dan saya berpikir bahwa ia adalah orang yang paling baik yang pernah saya temukan) Sebelum menjelang kepergiannya ia sempat menulliskan doa untuk para teman-temannya secara tidak langsung dan bagi saya sangatlah langka ada orang seperti dia. Saya senang berkenalan dengannya walau hanya beberapa bulan saja. Saya tidak bermaksud buruk menuliskan memorial wired, tapi bila ada yang keberatan saya mohon maaf sebesar-besarnya.

Somewhere Out There (reminds her melody as memorial
wired)

Only a few months we knowing each other, sending message each other, laughing
each other, joking each other…in this Lain world pal, you give a real spirit with all the creatures out
there with your peacefully + wisdom written…& then I heard about the bad news
out there.  A shocked news, my friend out there has passed away.  I felt guilty
about the journal that she wrote before she died, when she’s posting that day
the last day of her melody rhythm, I realized that there’s something awkward
with her, but I confused…cause I thought she just playing around like
usual…but still unusual too…joking like that…make us scared…I’m so
sad…so lost…It’s too short y ‘know!!! I can’t handle it no more to stopping
my tears alone! 

Jesus Lord, why you picked her up so early! Why you don’t
give us a chance to meet a wonderful, kindness & wise person out there like
Natasha?  But, I think…&…I think again…carefully…maybe that’s a
better way for you Natasha,  Jesus Lord knows…what you really wanted the
most…like your dream…to be somewhere else out there…peaceful world & so
wonderful like Nirvana…when all the humans are not fighting & grounding each
other, & bad things or bad habits never happens, no more there’s just love &
happiness…just a kind human in it…not on Earth…really a heaven place…your
dream’s come true! But, we still miss you so much!  & we always remember
all about you & pray to our Lord with different religion for each person out
there…that you will be happy forever!!! We can’t holding your hand no
more…when you want to go…so Natasha just go away like the wind
blows…follow the cure light that you will see a secret of real happiness
world.  Feel free, don’t worried about us…just let it go…Amen    

If you guys out there want to know about her just click
http://kembangsolo.blogspot.com/
ok!  I hope she knows that many people out there really missing her so much!!!
Therefore I’m so happy knowing you, beside your jokes, your innocent smile & all
the vigorous you have…thanks Natasha…I’m so honor to know you as my good
friend…& we are so affected when you are in misery dying but you still pray for us out
there…your ego’s zero…It’s too scarce y ‘know…not many people out there
like you…we are proud of you!!! au Revoir Natasha!!!       

million of creatures fallen on Earth but just only a few
creatures are different with others and for only just one is so rare will
becoming the secret path way of happiness!!! But still the happiness will be
grounding deeply into kindness people out there…is for you Natasha

Spiritual of wired now can be viewed with Opera, Firefox ( with plug in ), MSN E, Netscape, IE, & other browsers. btw, d weblog has been changin lately with many different fonts ! so it depends with d comp. but no hax anyway ^0^ just relax & have fun with d new spiritual of wired !!!

au revoir !!!

Many a humble soul will be amazed to find that the seed it sowed in weakness, in the dust of daily life, has blossomed into immortal flowers under the eye of the Lord.

- Harriet Beecher Stowe (1811-1896)

Jiwa yang rendah hati akan tercengang-cengang ketika menemukan bahwa bibit yang ditanamnya dalam kelemahan, di antara debu kehidupan sehari-hari, sudah tumbuh dan berkembang menjadi bunga-bunga yang abadi di mata Tuhan.

- Harriet Beecher Stowe (1811-1896)

By Ven. Dr. K. Sri Dhammananda

If you are a worried person, meditation can calm you and help you find peace of mind.

If you are a person who has endless problems, meditation can help you to develop courage and strength to face and overcome them.

If you have fear in your heart, meditation can help you to understand the real nature of the problems that are making you afraid - then you can overcome the fear in your mind.

If you are frustrated and heart-broken due to a lack of understanding of the uncertainly of life and the world, meditation can truly guide and help you to understand the fleeting nature of worldly conditions.

If you are a young man at the cross-roads of your life, and do not know which way to turn, meditation can help you to the right path to reach your chosen goal.

If you are hot-tempered, you can develop the strength to overcome the weakness of anger, hatred, and resentment to become a more calm and sober person.

If you are addicted to drinking or to drugs, you can overcome the dangerous habit which has enslaved you.

If you are strongly influenced by emotions, your emotions will have no chance to mislead you.

If you suffer from certain disorders such as nervous breakdowns and mental disturbances, meditation can activate the positive forces in your mind and body to regain your health, especially if they are psychosomatic.

If you are a wise person, meditation will lead you to supreme wisdom. Then you will see things as they are, and not as they appear to be.

SPIRITUAL OF WIRED

Y’ know guys recently I had already Changed d " Blablabla " in
to d specific title, hmm…what its called in English…wait a
minute…yah " Spiritual Of Wired "
Wow…its sounds cool yah ???!!! I Guess so… ^_^’

Btw, d important thing is…& so extraordinary LOL….just kidding as
usual…yup d Spiritual Of Wired will be brings a lot of new system
BIOS ( Beyond Inbox Of Spiritual ) LOL…only just 4 users in d
wired who being a real users in d spiritual of wired  ^0^ will
understanding dat…I suppose ^_^’

Well in dat case I will bringing a new announcement 4 all d users not only in
d spiritual of wired ( d wired users already knew it ^_^’ )…yup only 4 new
users…yah…I will not carry out d journal 4 almost 3 months, so d last & d
oldest one in June 13′05

Oh…yah…almost forgot shake…I will making a new website users…so if d
website comes in…so just prepare yah…it will be carry out in 2006 ^0^ be
patient okay ^0^

Have a nice reading everyone & take care…well I love u all…

Go to " Spiritual Of Wired " 
http://bigsin.blogspot.com/ or http://bigsin.tk/

Well whaddya know users…just click on it…btw…if u wanna see a real
awesome view…just use " Opera " browser with resolution 800 X
600 or just click F11 to enlarge d page & F5 2 up date d page
& if u wanna go 2 d next page just press on Ctrl arrows button
right 2 go 2 forward not backward & if u wanna close d page just click Ctrl W.
Okay doc users ^0^

Notes : U can use d Netscape, Mozilla Firefox, IE,
& others browser but not good as Opera…well I’m not a perfectionist y’
know ^_^’

au revoir!!!